Exam

Everything is fine and i think i have tried my best in performing well in the exam. To Abang Hakim, Abang Ashairi, Kak Zack, Kak Dewi, Kak Yana, i would like to thank them for always supporting me. You brighten up my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Exam week: Unplugged Concert

To me, exam week is the most crucial and excruciating moments. Undoubtedly, it drives me crazy. In order to alleviate the unbearable pressure that I am having at this time, i will always assume that sitting for exam is similar to beautifully singing the wonderfully interesting songs during the unplugged concert. Each exam paper that i am going to sit for will be accompanied by particular songs. These songs or so called exam theme songs will never fail to mesmerize and captivate your attention. The following are the theme songs for each exam paper.

Khidmat Masyarakat 2= Dingin
Teaching of Listening and Speaking Skill in An ESL Context= Medley of Puncak Kasih and Jerat Percintaan.
Learner Diversity and Differentiated Teaching= Aku Cinta Padamu
Literature in English for Malaysian Schools= Syurga Di Hati Kita
Methods in TESL= My heart Will Go On

Wish me luck

Successful outcome is within the realms of possibility.

Thank you my ********* for continuously supporting. Indeed, you are the greatest source of my inspiration.

i love xxxxxx

All hopes are gone.

Undeniably, i feel so stressed at this time. This is definitely because of the marks given by the people in authoritative. Sometimes, it is so hard for me to accept this ugly truth; you have tried your best to do the written assignment especially and yet you still don't get the desired marks . In other words, the successful outcome is beyond the realm of the possibility. Perhaps, that is my mistake to put high expectation of something and presuppose everything will go according to our plan. However, that is the hurdles that every student must go through in order to succeed in their study. Hopefully, i will be able to regain my control as well as strength to pursue my dreams. Seriously, i don't want people to perpetually look down upon me. Never ever!!!!!!. I have had enough bad experience during my childhood and i don't want that to happen again. ........

Special thanks to Heritos for always listening to my problems and offering practical solutions. I really appreciate it.

English

Why do i choose 'English' as my topic for this entry? Basically, i would like to share the trials and tribulations in learning English as a second language with all of the readers. Frankly speaking, English is the most complicated language that i have ever learned. One of the most compelling reasons is the structure of English sentence keeps changing and it seems unpredictable. At times, i get confused and i just don't know the solution to this insurmountable problem. Besides that, learning English really requires your gritty determination and patience. I, for example, was implicitly taunted and ridiculed by my friends and lecturers when i first started speaking this international language. I without doubt felt extremely upset and it deteriotated and killed my keen interest to learn English. Whenever i thought of my parents' sacrifices spending lots of money in my study,nevertheless, i felt motivated and continued the journey of learning English.
However, the lectures will always label their students in terms of their proficiency, fluency and accuracy. Regarding th e issue of labelling the students, i have an ambivalent feeling towards it.On one hand, i feel bad when the lectures deliberately mention about one's proficiency. On the other hand, it will make you realize your weakness and therefore you will strat brushing up your English .

Unbearable Pressure

At this moment, i feel extremely stressful and i don't know how to cope with this situation. Lecturers are always trying their very best to deliver their messages/lessons to students. Paradoxically, their endeavour make me go mad and it is hard to absorb the information and internalize them. Some people may not care about this difficulty and just take it for granted. To me, it is a big issue that i by hook or by crook must deal with it in a professional way.

Regarding the issue of quiz, i am actually under pressure and i can't force myself anymore to remember all the facts pertaining to methods in TESL. In other words, i have to stop pushing myself and alaways look at the positive, bright side of this life. When people have unrealistically high expectations of you, i find it is so difficult to satisfy them; you may feel what i am feeling right now if you try to put yourself in my shoes. This difficulty is also expressed by our best singer in Malaysia through her song called 'Biarlah Rahsia.'

'Pernahkah kau bermimpi seketika

'Berada di tempatku'

Anyway, I am not going to dwell on this issue since it will not make me feel good.

Butterflies in my stomach.................

Tomorrow, i will be presenting my oral presentation on thematic approach and schema theory. I was undeniably extremely nervous as my lecturer will be asking questions while delivering my oral presentation. I am so afraid of her challenging questions and i don't know how to cope with this situation. Anyway, her lecture was highly satisfactory and i at times feel comfortable expressing my views on certain issues. Even though i am feeling nervous right now, i will try the very best presenting that topic tomorrow morning. Hopefully, i can successfully answer her questions and make it through the rain. Pray for my success. For your information, i have got a new roommate and i will briefly explain about him for the next entry.

Very sincerely,

Butterfly